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Wednesday, 11 August 2010

It is still my dream

As I'm currently in training to be a cell leader, honestly I am not with happy with it all the trainings and meetings which i need to have with my leaders. It's not that I don not like being with them but there are some particular faces which pisses me everytime i see them. I can tell you that this world is made out of selfishness, they are so selfish til they look down on people, and it makes me feel that they are looking down on me.
If not, why not talking to me since the day I joined the subzone for leaders meeting? And only ask me questions when I core leader is with me?

Yes, I mentioned that they are loving BUT we are still human who will sin. That is why we need to repent, have God to forgive our sins and we will be made new again.

Sometimes, when I do not feel like going for meetings, somehow I'll have the tendency to force myself to go. It's not a strong forcing but it is my heart, which triggers the passion to be in the meeting with the whole bunch of cell leaders and with our Zone leader, who had caused me to be there.

I really need to seek more of God, to draw His strength to grow me, to strengthen my personality and to love those who doesn't love me.

I look forward to breakthroughs.
I feel bad for not keeping a spiritual journal.

God had done tremendous change in my life since the 1st day I step into City Harvest Church KL.
The people are different.
Their love towards God and people are really different.
They are loving, caring and kind to everyone and I can proudly say that these characteristics are not acted out and they are 100% not fake. Not because I am part of them now but because we treat people genuinely and we build relationships with people. It is because of the people in CHCKL, my leaders who had lead me through from the 1st day i joined them, encouraging and building my life.
It is definitely God who had placed me here.

God,
the one who changed me into a positive person,
the one who caused me to be a cheerful person,
the one who made me love the lost,
the one who gives me strength when I'm weak,
the provider in all areas of needs
the one who gave me the calling will make it come true in this church.

I can't describe my feelings on how do I feel being part of them. 1 word for now, AWESOME!

It's gonna be official 2 years being in CHCKL on 3rd September.

I am truly blessed and highly honored =)

Hallelujah!

Tuesday, 05 May 2009

A self prepared short message to share for offering in cell group.

It's offering time!
Does anyone of you know the purpose of giving offering?
1) Because it is an act of worship.
2) Our generousity on giving pleases God.
3) Generous giving honours God.
4) Giving helps to further God's work speedily.
5) We should give because God provides.
I encourage all of you to give with what you have and not with what you do not have. Give it with strong faith that it will be multiplied back to you because God knows our ability to give, and He knows very well about what we have. He wouldn't want us to give something which we do not have. As Heb 11:1 says, Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. I'm sure some of us are seeing multiplications now. If you're not seeing the multiplication that you want yet, let me encourage you to have faith that God will continue to provide to us even more. Our generousity is a thanksgiving to God.

Therefore, we should keep on trusting God for His provision in every area of our life including finances.
Everyone agree with me? Let's pray.

Monday, 09 March 2009

I hate my family and I hate my family not

What happened a few minutes ago gave me the urge of writing this here.
What happened was I was reluctant to move away from the computer to make a hot drink for myself and mum told me not to ask her to go to church anymore. And it hurts very much.

I know that mum's faith towards God had been deteorating.
She doesn't sing out loud while worshipping or staying strong in her faith anymore.
I know I can't judge her but I just know that she's in such a condition.
I have been encouraging her to pray more, to confess the word of God and keep on believing.
I can't do much since I am always away from home.

Why do I hate or dislike my family?
My dad is a smoker.
Mum always complains on being a home maker.
Parents and not in good terms with each other.
My sisters haven't been going to church for more than a year already.
Now, tell me what should I do? Keep on praying??
I find it really difficult to share my faith with family especially with mum and sisters though they know that God has been great to me and I can't thank Him enough for all that He had done for me. But it is just very tough to get them to be even more faithful to God. I'm not trying to say that I am super faithful or holy. But I want to see a breakthorugh in my family.

Sometimes, I rather not to be at home.
But I hadn't missed any weekends of not coming home.
Of couse it's nice to be home but I hate it when I have to listen to all of the complains and getting to all of the disagreements between parents and seeing my dad smokes.
I wished I could live in my own world but I know I can't just leave my family just like that.
Sigh.

Sunday, 14 December 2008

1 Timothy 6 : 17-21

1Ti 6:17	Tell those who are rich in this world not to be proud and not to trust in their money, which will soon be gone. But their trust should be in the living God, who richly gives us all we need for our enjoyment.
1Ti 6:18	Tell them to use their money to do good. They should be rich in good works and should give generously to those in need, always being ready to share with others whatever God has given them.
1Ti 6:19	By doing this they will be storing up their treasure as a good foundation for the future so that they may take hold of real life.
1Ti 6:20	Timothy, guard what God has entrusted to you. Avoid godless, foolish discussions with those who oppose you with their so-called knowledge.
1Ti 6:21	Some people have wandered from the faith by following such foolishness. May God's grace be with you all.